他

這一個月⋯⋯

他沒有想過找我，無論是親身找我還是手機短訊來找我。而，每次短訊都是我先發出的。

我們溝通的方法只有手機短訊。

我問他有空陪我嗎？

他回答：「好忙。」

我心想，他的忙都只是在家裡打機、煲劇，有時可能是跟朋友出去唱K吃飯。

有次我問他：「不如走遠一點的餐廳吃飯，順便逛街，好不好？」

他反問我：「外出有什麼意義？」

他繼續道：「留在家裡打機更有意義。」

我無言。

心想，隨你喜歡吧！

對於他說的這番說話，我感到很失望。

未免他在乎我的程度也蠻少啊！

甚麼時候我們的短訊內容會多一點呢？

那就是聊「P&D」的時候。

我知道他真的很喜歡打機，所以我也有跟他學習如何轉珠。

當我問他打機的問題，他就會立即回覆。

如果是跟他聊其他問題，他通常會隔數小時才回覆。

有次我有機會可以跟他視訊，但是談了一陣子就給他朋友的來電打斷了。

他按下靜音功能，所以我聽不到他說什麼。

可是，我也看見他談話時的表情。

他那燦爛笑容，我一輩子也不會忘記，因為我只在相識時通過通話見過那快樂的笑容，往後相處非常少見到。

他的不瞅不睬，我的無言以對

他的疏遠隔離，我的無奈嘆息

Dream

Can you remember the dream after you wake up?

I CAN. I don't know would it sounds weird to say that, but YES, I CAN. And I can remember the details of my dream as well.

Today I heard myself shout when I was still sleeping, then I knew this was really my dream.

When I woke up, I then immediate wrote that down.

Dream for today

1.  I am in my room sleeping. I hear some sounds outside. 

What I hear is like this, a lady said, "I come here to check out our company product."

And my mom said, "This company is really good. It has the after service."

I finally wide awake, but still laid in bed.

Then my mom came into my room. She carried a shopping bag and told me, "I buy a new set of perfume.

I saw there were 3 bottles of perfumes inside a colourless bag. I remember mom has already had the biggest glass bottle of perfume. So, I asked mom why you need to buy these. Mom said, "Because I broke the perfume today. The perfume put inside the cabinet. And I needed to get something, so I took out the perfume and put it aside. There was a 'cling' sound when I wanted to get something. Then I turned around and saw my favourite glass bottle of perfume broke. So, I went down to the shop and bought a new one. But the sales lady said I cannot just buy one, so I buy 3 bottles (2 small & 1 big in size)."

Mom has also bought a candle. She took out and lightened up a candle (like Bath and Body Works one), and put it on my desk. Then I got off my bed, took up the candle bottle, and tried to smell.

2. I am a phone addict and I need help. 

My friend saw me like that and sent me to the retreat. But actually I was going to investigate this retreat because I thought it bilked people's money.

I entered into the room of that retreat to settle down. After a few minutes, people in charge came in my room. There were 2 men and 1 woman. 

The woman came to me and requested me to sit next to her. Person who were in front of me was one of the men.

The person in front of me insulted me by saying my name incorrect. I then grabbed his neck with force and shouted "I hate people say my name incorrect!"

*What I wrote here was really what I saw and remembered in my dream.*
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Forget You

Can I start the time all over again?

Start from the time that I still don't know you

Forget the happiness and sadness with you

Forget that I am really mad with you with just little things

Forget you can't remember my birthday

Forget you said you are fine without me

Just...forget everything I know about you

Maybe I will feel slightly better

Maybe I will feel happier without you

Game: Choose One (Part 1)

I decide to play a fun game called Choose One. There are two options in each question, and I am going to choose one and tell you why I choose this answer.

1. Nike or Adidas?

Nike. I am a huge fan for Nike. You may ask me why I love this brand a lot. It is because when I was in secondary school, I love Zac Efron so so so much. I remembered I saw a picture that Zac wore Nike brand clothes and sport shoes (I am not sure website or magazine), and thought it was so cool to wear Nike brand. So that's why I buy a lot of Nike stuff (T-shirt, jacket, shorts, socks, shoes, bags and schoolbag).



2. Heel or flat?

Flat. Actually I love wearing something makes me even taller, but most of my friends are not tall. When I wear heels or boots, they would say I am too tall. Don't wear that! So, I would choose flat like Converse and American Eagle.





3. Coffee or tea?

Tea. I started to drink coffee when I was 14. And I thought it was no good to drink a lot and not healthy enough. So right now, when I go to restaurant, I would order a cup of hot lemonade. And at home, I would sometimes drink tea. My favourite tea right now is ice wine tea. I bought it from St. Lawrence Market, Toronto, Canada. And it tastes really delicious. I love the ice wine favour.




4. iPhone or Android?

Iphone. I have tried to use my parent's Android phone but I don't know how to use. So turn out I choose iPhone. It is easy to use and simple is beautiful. 






5. Eye glasses or eye contact?

Eye glasses. I don't feel comfortable to wear eye contact. I am a bit sensitive person. If I wear that, I need to take at least 30 minutes to put the contact on because I keep blinking my eyes. And it is even more difficult to take out the contact (takes more time than putting on). And every time I use my fingers to touch my eyeball and take out the contact, I feel super terrified and just hope the contact would automatically take off. So I would choose eye glasses. If you see my picture and see me without glasses, probably I just took out my eye glasses and take the picture but not wearing contact.


6. Day shower or night shower?
It is very difficult question for me because it depends on my willingness. I usually take shower at night. But, when I was in Canada last summer, most of the time, I chose to take shower in the morning (maybe because of the jet lag). I found the advantage that I would feel refresh after that. Therefore, when I came back to Hong Kong, I chose to take shower in the morning. But, my dad doesn't like that, he said, "It is not hygienic." Actually I felt shocked about that, and told him the advantage about shower in the morning. But he insisted he was right. So, I need to take shower at night.


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重視

希望你能給予我一點點的時間

花小小的心思去回覆我的短訊，

不要只給我一兩短句或者全是表情符號。

看到這樣的回覆，我心很難過。

你知道嗎？你知道我心裡難過嗎？

你就是不知道才會這樣回覆⋯⋯

正所謂「*一日不見，如三月兮」，

一天不見就像苦等了三個月，

何妨我倆已三星期沒見，

那我也不知苦等了多久。

那相思之苦原來真的很苦，

也有一種感覺是無了期的等待。

無了期的等待是明明知道你有空，

但你也沒有想過找我，

寧願待在家裡休息，

你説怎樣睡也睡不夠。

説真的我不知道如何回應。

我最後回應了兩句，

「你繼續睡吧！我不騷擾你。」

但是那氣憤無奈的情感在我的話語夾雜着。

其實現在我仍然覺得無奈，

但仍然期盼著你會找我，

用行動來證明你重視我。

*「一日不見，如三月兮」出自《詩經》的國風，詩名為〈子衿〉。

Tomorrowland

Today I watched an amazing movie named 'Tomorrowland' produced by Disney and I got inspired by this movie.

I am a Disney fan and love watching Disney movies because they always bring out positive and optimistic messages to me which can lead me to be a better person. And this movie 'Tomorrowland' also can bring me positive messages.

This story is really well-written, talking about world ends and the future. It also includes topics like environmental-friendly and humanity.

This movie is meaningful and inspiring. It tells me that everyone need to believe in yourself because we have got the power to build up a better life and better future. We should not underestimate our abilities because we got potential on different aspects like music, arts, science, etc. Once we have found our potential, we have to well use it and follow our passion. If you haven't found your potential, keep searching and try different aspects. I am sure you can find your talent and things that you are good at.

We should not easily give up things that we want to do or passionate about. Giving up implies we will not face the same thing over again and want to escape and avoid finishing it. If we give up, we are losers. I remembered when I was 14, I wanted to give up ballet because wearing pointe shoe to dance is really tough and painful. It was too difficult for me to balance. But I told myself, just give it a try and not give up. I could make it through. So at the end, I finished my grade 8 exam and intermediate foundation in the next year. I am thankful that I do not give up and satisfactorily finish my ballet dance.

For those who don't know anything about pointe shoe: There is a box that typically made from tightly packed layers of paper and fabric that have been glued together and then shaped into an enclosure.


For everyone,
specifically for people who struggle, 
who still have not found their potentials,

Remember to believe in yourself,
follow your passion,
and not to give up.


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A New Start

Every summer is a new start for me

To think and rethink

Who am I 

Where I belong 

And how to perform better

Every summer is a new start for me

To let go and move on

Forget unhappiness

Be positive

And accept new challenges

Every summer is a new start for me

To scream and shout

Release pressure

Enjoy life

And do what I want to do

討厭與不喜歡

以下我討厭和不喜歡的事/感覺：

討厭

1. 討厭與人比較

2. 討厭人重複話語三次或以上

3. 討厭每月不舒服的時候，痛得甚麼都做不來（我會覺得無能為力）

4. 討厭滂沱大雨外出

5. 討厭襪子濕漉漉的感覺

6. 討厭噪音（我對聲音頗敏感）

7. 討厭五光十色的霓虹燈（我會頭痛）

8. 討厭人多喧鬧的地方

不喜歡

1. 不喜歡有人催促我做事

2. 不喜歡父母不叩門就進來我的房間

3. 不喜歡窗口開得太大（我每次開大窗戶就會有蜜蜂/黃蜂進來，非常害怕）

4. 不喜歡女生生病戴口罩時仍穿短裙（我覺得很礙眼）

5. 不喜歡空氣污濁的地方（容易鼻敏感）

6. 不喜歡乘搭地鐵時明明是四人座位的，也要特意逼進來，變成五人座位

7. 不喜歡一些餐廳特意開大空調來趕吃完飯的客人離開

8. 不喜歡向人解釋我所做的事

My Favourite Shop in Markham

Last summer, I went to Markham, Canada to visit my grandparents, aunt and uncle. 

I really like Canada this country.

After finished this semester, I finally got motivation to edit this video, 'My Favourite Shop in Markham'.

One of my favourite places in Canada is Unionville. 

It is a french-like beautiful place. 

Every time I visit, I wish I could stay here.

I even told my grandparents that if I could stay in Markham, I would like to buy a house in Unionville.

There is a ring that I like it so much when I entered into the shop in Unionville 4 years ago.

My aunt knew that and bought it to me.

I really am thankful that she bought this pretty ring for me.

Last summer, I visited Unionville twice.

And that jewellery shop becomes my favourite shop to visit.

Click this link so that you can know my favourite shop in Markham
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折磨（只限女生）

每個月來的一次總令我感到痛苦多於快樂，

有時候還痛不欲生，

但痛苦的感覺往往難以有辦法能減輕，

因為痛苦過才能得到快樂，

健康上的以及心靈上的快樂。

以下是我的經驗之談。

不知道有多少女生跟我一樣會留意細節，因為我知道自己身體不佳，如果不留意的話，難以有所改善。

根據多年觀察，我的不適是有步驟的，

中學時期：

第一至三天的流量多，下腹長期感到痛楚，在床上輾轉反側，下腹「乸住痛」。

第二天通常會在凌晨五時痛醒，然後下腹「乸住痛」，待在洗手間最少一小時，期間會痛得想大喊但不敢喊（因為不想騷擾家人）。

第三天是最痛苦的一天。

第四天就會好起來，痛楚大減。

現在：

形式一樣，不過流量少過以前，痛楚比起中學時期沒那麼強烈。

講起「折磨」，我的終極之痛可以說是「混合痛苦」，

即是每月來的一次+感冒+發燒/發冷。

這種「混合痛苦」我試過一次，

那次發生在三年前的十一月，

那天是我感冒的第二天，

我繼續待在家裏休息，沒去上課

原本以為病好就沒事，

誰不知每個月的一次

在不恰當的日子來到，

讓我痛不欲生。

還記得當時的我坐在床上，

穿上厚厚的衣服、襪子，

包著厚厚的被子，

務求將自己好好包得緊緊，不感到寒冷。

可是事與願違，我的身體發冷不停顫抖，

發抖了一個小時，同時下腹的痛苦加劇一倍，因為暖不起來。

當時外傭害怕得要死，問我要不要叫救護車。

我以顫抖的聲線向她說不要。

然後，她就拿更多的衣服蓋住我，希望我可以溫暖一點。

現在回想起來那情境，也覺得非常恐怖。

申明：以前的我健康狀況不佳，會連續痛三日。

現在的我，為了解決痛苦，會選擇以音樂助自己入睡，

音樂的作用主要是做來麻醉自己。

有好運的話，聽幾首歌就能睡著；

運氣不好時，我會循環歌曲，直到起身才關掉音樂。

其實大多時間聽音樂這個方法是有效的，

但是有時候也會失靈失效的，

就好像今天，聽了音樂也是痛醒，唉，只睡了一小時。

雖然會痛醒，但是我還是要非常感恩，因為現在的痛比昔日的痛少多了。

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幸福

我很幸福，難得遇上你這個知音人，

明白我的想法，喜歡我的興趣。

有時候覺得自己好像星座書說的一樣是怪胎，

看法經常與人不同，眾人同意時我不同意，

眾人喜歡時我不喜歡，令身旁的人困惑，難以理解我。

可你不同，你好像真的懂我，

明白我的處境，能夠站在我的角度來看事情。

我真的好幸福，好幸福。

謝謝你！

The Mirror

Looking at the mirror

Feel the slightly warm

Steam comes all over


The mirror in front 


Becomes obscure and blur

Wiping the mirror

Reflection slightly clear

But suddenly blur

Wiping again the mirror

Slightly clear

But suddenly blur

Repeatedly

Again and again

Reflection

Still unclear

Bad Blood (Story of My Past)

Taylor Swift has released her latest music video called 'Bad Blood'. Personally I love this song so much. The song is easy to remember, especially the chorus. The storyline of this music video is amazing. And this story makes me remember the past. It is about betrayal, betray by someone you love. I think what Taylor is trying to talk about are her ex-boyfriends that betrayed her. For listeners like us, we may think of our best friend and ex-lover.

I believe that everyone has got bad blood. Some of them show less and some just show more. When I was in form 1, I met a classmate who was nice to me and willing to talk to me in class. Then we became friends. But one day, a group of classmates asked my friend whether she wanted to join their group or not. They told her one condition was that she could no longer talk with me after joining their group because they dislike me. And, she chose the group. I remembered that day after school, my friend brought me to the library and talked to me. She said, "There are 10 classmates in class hate you right now. And I don't want them to hate me. So, take care!" Then she left. The next day, she no longer talked to me. And, we had not talk for the rest of the secondary school life. After betrayal, I was very disappointed by her act. Then I hate her and also hate that group of classmates in my whole secondary school life. When I was in form 6, I knew that group of classmates still hate me. And that time I thought they were just silly and foolish. I decided not to hate them anymore. There was no use when I hate someone, that just made me unhappy.

Let me ask you, if someone betray you, what will you do? Get revenge and vent your anger, hate the betrayer all the rest of your life, or let it go and move on. For me right now, I would choose the third one because it would be painful to torture yourself to hate one person for the rest of your life. Besides, the betrayer has just taught you a lesson. So, you can learn from that and move on, and be a better person.

夢想

你有沒有夢想？
相信很多人都會回答「有」。

但是，你有沒有堅持夢想呢？

那就未必人人都有。

堅持立場是很難的事，因為有很多人阻擾你的決定。父母、親戚跟你說：「你需要賺錢養家，買樓供樓。」這讓你意識到現實究竟是怎樣的一回事。你意識到自己的夢想未能達到父母親戚所說的要求。此時你可能會改變想法，做一些踏踏實實、安安穩穩的工作，祈求賺錢養家、組織家庭。然而我告訴你，你堅持不到你的夢想。

夢想看似遙遠，但只要你肯付出時間、心力、精神，夢想也可以是實際的。雖然一開始你未必能夠得到即時回報，擁有豐厚的金錢，但是假以時日你的付出一定能夠得到相應的回報。擁有夢想會令你快樂，令你明白你生存在世上的價值。我不希望大家到年老才後悔為何當初自己放棄夢想。自己想做的事，就堅持吧！請你堅決地告訴你的父母：「我有屬於我的夢想！請您容許我花一點時間去找尋夢想。」

人只能活一次，堅持夢想吧！

閲書 · 悅讀（愈輸 · 愈讀）

老套的問一句，你為何要「閲書」？

為了消閒娛樂？為了學習知識，增廣見聞？或是學習作家的寫作技巧？對我來說，以上皆是我為何要「閲書」的原因。

我喜歡上閲讀，因為每一本書都能夠給予我少少的啓發，助我成長。我的寫作靈感也是從觀察、閱讀得來。

現今的香港社會，人人都很忙碌，忙工作，忙學業，那裡有閒情逸致閲讀呢？盡情抽空吧！也許可以花數分鐘看看我寫的文章；也許可以花十多分鐘來閱書，讓自己的身心得以平靜，得以喜悅。培養閲讀的習慣是需要的，助你分析，深入地了解事情的始末。

人總是杞人憂天，有很多煩惱去想。當人生遇到不如意的事，你隨手拿起一本書來看也可以帶給心靈上的慰藉，或者是給予你力量去繼續奮鬥。所以，我希望大家挫敗的時候，覺得會失去一切的時候，拿起一本書來看，也許它能給你一些啓發。記得「愈輸愈讀」！

41號鞋的不便

以前跳舞的時候，每一年都會量度芭蕾舞鞋和民族舞鞋的尺碼。

而我，每年都要買一雙新的芭蕾舞鞋和民族舞鞋。

相信大家都知道為甚麼要每年都買。

在跳舞的時候，我鞋子尺碼每年都會大一號。

看見我的跳舞朋友都不會這樣每年花錢去買鞋，有時我會羨慕他們。

除了跳舞鞋外，當時的我還需要穿學校的黑鞋和白波鞋，以及外出的鞋子。

每年都要買鞋真的是很花費的事。

我想，究竟何時腳的增長會停下來？

到最後，我的腳停留在41號。

41號。其實是一個頗尷尬的鞋子尺碼，亦對我的生活造成了少許不便。

平時走路當然是沒問題，但是一去到上落樓梯就會有少許麻煩。

我常常覺得行人上落的樓梯不是給擁有大腳的人行的，因為每一梯級都很窄。

如果我以正常行路方式上落的話，因為我的腳大，所以踏每一級都只踏到梯級的四分之三，感到好不踏實。

因此，我上落樓梯的時候，習慣了雙腳打斜，盡量令雙腳全部踏到梯級。

我認為，而在購買鞋子的時候，也會帶來麻煩。

還記得幾年前我走進了一間深受香港人愛載的鞋舖選購休閒鞋。

那個情境，我銘記於心。

當時，我選了一雙有色彩斑斕有花紋圖案的鞋子。

然後拿起來鞋子問售貨員有沒有41號。

她說：「有花紋圖案的鞋子我們只限40號或以下，41號或以上我們有男裝鞋，不過只有淨色選擇。」

聽到她這樣說，我呆了，心想，是否香港鞋舖認定了全香港女生只能夠擁有40號或以下的腳尺碼？是否41號或以上的就是男人啊？

最後，我很不愉快地選擇了一對黑色的休閒鞋。

隨後我也需要買一雙上學鞋。那我就去了自己住的地方的商場，每一間鞋鋪都進入，去問有沒有41號上學鞋。

我還記得有一個售貨員跟我這樣說：「我們只購入40號或以下的女裝鞋子，其他的不會購入。」

這樣對腳大的女生，我覺得真的好過份。有時我認為這是一個歧視，對腳大的女生的歧視。

我知道有一些香港女生和我也是穿41號或以上的鞋子尺碼。

這些鞋舖的決定而令我們少了機會去選擇漂亮的鞋子；令我們要在網上購買空運過來；令我們在外地旅行時大量搜購適合我們的鞋子。

幸好現在，我知道香港終於有鞋舖，申明自己售賣41號女裝鞋，此舉動令我非常感動。

我強烈建議香港鞋舖應購入41號至44號的女裝鞋，便利我們。謝謝！